Haze Gray and Underway

I was going to just post a one liner on Twitter or Facebook about how I feel right now, but that is just impossible. I would literally draw a blank because one sentence is either not enough or way too much. I can't decide.

Basically, for most of 2010 I've been jaded, in a haze, zoning out, etc. I have a feeling it's my subconscious telling me "you're not meant to do anything technical or mechanical." My grades have been slipping, but I already decided not to put in an Officer Packet yet so that has little to no bearing. I'm still passing, haven't failed anything yet, but what was once 3.4s are now 3.0s.

As far as relationships go, I feel like I'm very distant nowadays, even with the people I see and talk to regularly. It's so bizarre. Usually, I've had a few people that I could really engage with all the time (I'm looking at you Ted, Greg if you're reading this). But I'm missing that here.

I keep waiting for things to pick back up again, to get my spirits going and whatnot... but I feel like I've been waiting for a long time.

OK, had to get that off my mind. It's been eating away at me. Hope all is well, sorry I don't use this much anymore.

RP